What's Next?

I find myself always thinking about the future. Unfortunately, not being excited about it, is more just pure worrying. I’ll sit there and spiral about how I want it to go and what I need to do to get there. It’s scary to think about.

To look at the position you are in now, you can’t but compare your situation to others, and I’m a prime example of doing this. I am nineteen years of age and I look around and see people I know settling down, having children, and even getting fucking engaged. It is so crazy to me that even at my age, people feel like they are in the right position in life to be doing these things. I am still studying at university and going out clubbing with friends being a drunken mess. I keep asking myself the same question, am I falling behind? The idea that I am behind in life, and everyone is overtaking me is horrifying, pure terror. But that’s the wrong mentality, completely innocent.

Boiling it down to what it is, I’m nineteen. I’m still a child, well, a young adult. This is the period in life where we should be experiencing new things, and finding ourselves as people. We aren’t going to get this opportunity again with this amount of freedom before our actual life starts. Just because certain individuals are moving at a faster pace than you shouldn’t discourage you at all, you should use it as motivation to keep working hard so that you can achieve greater. I am at university to get my degree so that I can obtain a job doing something I love, and not have to be stuck in a 9-5 job that I must do because I have no other choice. Life is cruel and it most likely won’t go the way you think, but if you truly believe in yourself and are determined to reach those goals you have for your future, I have no doubt in my head that you can do it. You can do anything.

During my childhood, my parents burned into my head that I should push for greatness, and that should focus on school and education because later in life, it will allow me to do so much more. Unfortunately, my parents did not have the best upbringings, they would tell me these anecdotes about how they have worked hard to get to the position that they are in and how they want me to achieve even more. I don’t think I can thank them enough for that, motivation is something that I really struggle with and if it wasn’t for my mother & father’s help, I would not be here right now pushing to further my education so that I can excel in life.

I’m excited about my future. I’m ready to see where my life takes me and see what I end up doing, either way, if I have a nice home and people I care about around me, I’ll be happy, I don’t really want much more.

I hope you have a wonderful day.

Never forget,

Don’t Stop.