Smoking Trees & Feeling at Ease

First things first, Happy New Year!! Unfortunately, I haven’t posted any blog content this year, I took a small break to focus on myself so that I could return as the best possible version of myself for you guys.

Anyway, this year so far has been an absolute rollercoaster (feel like I say this all the time haha), I feel like I have been all over the place, but also feel like I’ve been nowhere. Back in November, I decided that I was going to step away from the blog, mainly due to stress and not being able to deal with it in the correct way.

Stress is a natural response to difficult or challenging situations, and can be helpful in small doses, providing us with the energy and focus to tackle a problem. However, when stress becomes overwhelming, it can have serious negative effects on our mental and physical health.

For me personally? Stress is something I have always struggled with managing, I seem to end up filling up my time with things that can give me an escape from real life and where my stress lives, these being things like hanging out with friends, binge-watching television shows, or smoking weed. All these outlets, whilst being acceptable (maybe not the weed 0_0) are only healthy in the correct amounts, if not managed, they can spiral out of control and completely fill your time whilst you ignore the problems you should be addressing and managing. As I grow up and my mindsets change, stress always seems to follow me wherever I go and that is something I can’t control, it’s a natural part of life. As life goes on, you slowly build up more and more to stress about, which can sometimes feel suffocating. Let’s take it back a decade, what was I worrying about? Xbox? Girls? These little things that now are completely irrelevant to me now. But now? Money, university, the future, etc… These issues are always making their way around my mind.

But enough about why I’m stressed, that’s not what this post is about.

As of right now, I am feeling the best I have felt in a long while, and this is because I have finally found a healthy way of dealing with my stress. Before this, I was blinded to the way I would act while I was in a stressful situation. I would push everyone who cared away, I would smoke so much that I would lose touch with reality, and I would act irrationally and erratic which unfortunately pushed some of the people I was closest with away.

I’ve had to change my entire day-to-day schedule so that I can deal with a bad mindset in a healthy way, replacing my bad habits with healthy ones that will impact me in positive ways.

If you were to meet me in person a couple of years ago, you would have seen a 5ft8 overweight child, who had never even attempted a healthy lifestyle. After being sick of looking in the mirror and hating the way I look, I started to cut down on my snacking and started becoming more active. This has allowed me to take the stress of not looking the way I desired and use that as motivation to be active. So with this lifestyle and the help of a growth spurt, I now write this as a 6ft3 larger man who is comfortable with the way he looks.

If not for my newfound positive mental attitude, I would be stuck as a complete mess. With overwhelming stressful situations, I now take each issue and identify the best outcome, which I then strive for, and similar to my first point about exercise and dieting, I used this stress and panic as motivation to achieve the best outcome.

Look, you can view this post as just a random cunt talking at you about how you should be healthy because it will make you feel better. But that’s not what I’m trying to do. What I’m trying to tell you is that if you are a stressful motherfucker to be around, try changing the bad habits that you use to deal with stress. If I did nothing about my habits, I would spend my day's chain-smoking joints, watching shows, and never showing up to university. I want you to change your habits now so that you can progress in life and be an all-round nicer person to be around in the future. My hope is that I can carry on sticking to this lifestyle and building my relationships with people so that I can be the best possible version of myself.

Have an amazing day,

And never forget,

Don’t Stop