Questions

So, it’s been a while since posted.

This month has been an absolute rollercoaster.

But I’m back and I’m here to stay :)

Anyway, it’s currently 8 o’clock in the morning and I haven’t slept just yet. I’ve been stuck in my own head. The main thing I can’t seem to stop thinking about is the future. The future is something I have spoken about before and it’s honestly something that fucking terrifies me, it’s something that can give me motivation like nothing else can but can also strip me of every bit of hope I have of bettering my life. It’s something that I’ve been struggling with for a while if I’m going to be honest.

In my head, I have this ideal plan of how I want my life plan out. Finish university with a grade I’m happy with, work in the industry for a year or two, save money, and then go out and see the fucking world. After that? Carry on working, build a family, raise my children, and then die. That’s the plan. Is this the way it’s going to happen? No. And that’s okay.

Like I’ve said before, making future plans and working towards the things you want is key for your mental health, it gives you something to aspire towards, and keeps you motivated. But trust me it can be hard, future plans can become blurred, mainly due to what is going on around you currently. But you need to hold onto the dreams and hopes you have for the future, don’t let them go, because without hope for the future, what do you have left? No matter what is happening right now in this current moment, always remember what you are working towards, look back and see all the hard work you have already put in to get you in the position you are in. You’re at university? Remember the hours of revision you did to study for your GCSEs or you’re A-Levels. You’re building your family? Remember the hard work you had to do so that you could build your relationship.

You have already put in the hard work, so why stop now?

Although it scares me, I’m so fucking excited to see what the future holds for me. I want to see where I end up and who I’m with. Do I have the job I always wanted? Do I have a family? Am I with the love of my life? All these questions are yet to be answered and I’m ready to see how it all plans out, and you should be too!

When thinking about an example of someone changing their life to fit the mold they wanted, I like to think about my older brother. Growing up with him I’ve seen him go through these drastic changes throughout my whole life, the main one being after working for a year or two fresh out of college he realised that without a degree he could never progress as high as he wanted to. So, he left his job, went to university, put in the fucking work, and got his degree. I aspire to be like my brother even though he’s a massive prick, he’s an inspiration.

Think about your future and how you want it to work. The only thing stopping you from shaping it in your own way is yourself, believe in yourself. Because you know what? I fucking believe in you, and sometimes you just need to hear that from someone.

I fucking believe in you.

Have a wonderful day,

And never forget,

Don’t stop, never stop.